Letter to the Father

Dad, why is it so hard for us to believe that we are beautiful? We can call something that you say or do as beautiful. We can say that other's are beautiful, mountains, sunsets, paintings etc...but when it comes to ourselves; it is so hard to believe.

When we do stupid stuff or when we have been through hell and back...some of which may have caused major scars, we take it out on ourselves. Sometimes we need to take responsibility for the consequences of said behavior, but it doesn't necessarily make us less beautiful. When I stop to think about it, it's hard for me to comprehend what you did for us...let alone for me.

You made me in your likeness. I call you beautiful, so why is it so hard to believe that I myself am? It's not like I think that all the time, but most of time, the thought creeps in there. I don't like myself a lot of the time. I know many, many people who do not like themselves. It's not that we are 'bad' people, sometimes we do bad stuff, or say stupid things, but in the long run...we are beautiful.

I think a lot of the time, if we are not close to you like we should be, this is when it's the worst. When you surround yourself with good, you become a reflection of that. I guess that is why so many 'earthly' parents say they don't want you hanging with the wrong crowd, doing things that could hurt you, listening to music that is hateful, etc...because the longer you are around negative things, you project negativity. We are sponges aren't we Dad? You created us though, to soak you up. I'm sorry that we ignore you most of the time. I'm sorry that we choose to soak in the things of this world that aren't a reflection of you.

Please help me Dad. Help me to be a better daughter. I want to listen to you more than those around me that aren't positive. Sometimes I feel like a lost little girl. No matter how many times I have wandered off, you have always found me and kissed my boo boo's. I love you Daddy. I want to make you proud. I want to stop feeling this way. I want to help other's to stop feeling this way. I want us all to realize how precious, valuable and lovely we are even through all the mistakes, the bruises, the crap that we have allowed to consume us. Help us to draw near to you, so that we can easily reflect your beauty...so when we look in the mirror...we see you...